Hai2!! its been quite a while since i last visit my own blog.. hehe.. cik yan, cik yan.. ape pon tk bole.. mmg tk bole lah cik yan ni.. Tapi mmg tau now m seriously bz.. mmg sgt bz.. ndak2 bl my senior left the firm around july tu ari.. mmg mcm lipas kudung lah kan cik yan nk kna settle kn semua sorang.. BUT of cos not really sorang2 lah.. my supporting staff sume ade.. cm life has bn totally hectic 4 me and even much hectic than i used to hv b4.. haihh.. ishh, tk baik mengeluh kn? kn? dl ms praktis kat KL i really wish 2 hv a bz working environment.. hehe.. haa, slh sape?? slh sdri lah kn.. ni lah dia.. bl dh dpt merungut jek.. adooiii.. tp btl tau mmg ms duk KL dl sgt relaxing.. now in JB adoii, klu blk blh nmpk matahari lg tu kira bersyukur sgt lah.. hehehe.. ok lah, actually topik utk post cik yan ni bknlah psl work semata2.. tp cik yan nk bermonolog ttg C.I.N.T.A ~ blh?? hahaha.. tk kuasa lah... tp just 4 sharing lah & 2 certain people yg mmg tk prnah tau ceritera cinta cik yan dolu2 kala bcos people simply accuse me of being choosy.. m ain't perfect.. bla.. bla.. bla.. and bla.. bla.. bla.. so, cik yan ingat cik yan mcm letih sgt nk explain Y this & that.. people won't understand.. they will never try 2 understand.. but 2 me, it is very simple if i put it ths way : bkn semua org bernasib baik utk dpt bahagia.. well3, cik yan sendiri is among d unlucky ;)
~ My love story : Part 1 ~
Kata org cinta itu indah.. indah sgt sampai hidup terbuai2.. ntahkn ye ke idak.. klu yg pnh bcinta myb blh la gbrkn rs terbuai2 tu kn.. angau semcm.. mkn tk kenyang.. tido tk lena.. mndi tk bsh.. aikk, hbs tk mndi ke?? eeuuww.. yuckss.. hehe
Well3.. my fren said i should consider myself very lucky 2 hv taste love.. bcos love smhow has its magic power.. it could do wonders.. well, i do agrees & indeed wen u r in love.. most probably u gonna c rainbows all d time.. Y is tht so?? yelah.. pelangi kn indah.. nmpak cantik jek.. btl tk?? *lets KIV on rainbows
cik yan ni sgt patuh toward my parents.. *cheewahh.. hehehe.. msuk bakul angkat sdri nmpk.. hehe.. btl.. no bluffing.. my parents said i shd finish study 1st.. finish smpai dpt LLB (hons) ye.. then only i can talk abt coupling, dating, etc.. jd ms zmn uni dl bl kwn2 berdating i mmg tk heran langsung.. bcos obedience kn?? mmg sgt obedience ye.. i finish doing my LLB then entering d practising world s a legal practitioner.. b4 tht kna jd budak chamby dl 4 abt 9 mths gitu.. dh lps ethics course & call to the Bar bru confirm jd Cik ye.. sblm tu diaorg panggil nm jek.. hehe *ape kaitan dgn cite cinta ni?? haihh..
oklah, lps dpt license cik yan mmg trs concentrate keje je.. ms tu adik2 pn msh sekolah, so i mmg help my family utk bantu adik2 sekolah.. mmg tkde ms nk pikir psl lovey-dovey ni.. skrg diaorg pn dh bsr pjg & dh ade family sdri.. cik yan jek yg blm.. hehe *ok2, now bru nk msuk my love story yek.. sorry2
oklah my 1st serious relationship mmg sgt mengujakn.. maklumlah, ada org syg kn?? hehe.. seriousnya thp bcinta cik yan ms tu smpai thp dh jumpa org tua & family & dh plan nk ke syurga.. hahaha.. syurga pulak.. sampai jinjang pelamin jek.. lps tu man2 lah cr jln ke syurga kn.. hehe.. ms tu cik yan rs dunia sgt indah.. mmg i see rainbows tau all d time.. he is such a caring guy.. sgt2 caring.. he's there whenever i need him.. sampai cik yan jd sgt depending on him.. wlupn i used 2 b a very independent girl b4 i met him.. yelah, sorang2 kt KL.. all family kat jhr.. so, i mmg sgt berdikari.. kami bercinta mmg bagai nk rak.. bak kt org tua2.. hehe.. tp kn, ku sangka kn pns berpanjangan.. rupanya gerimis.. rupanya gerimis mengundang.. alahai.. jd cerita cinta cik yan tu tk kesampaianlah.. huhh.. sedihhh!! suddenly dia brubah tingkah.. tk reply sms.. tk angkat call 4 abt a week cmtu.. then he sent 1 short sms : "PLS READ YR EMAIL".. ms tu zmn tk bape nk canggih lah kn.. cik yan pn blm subscribe broadband.. so mlm2 hr abt 11 o'clock cmtu i went 2 CC ~ kafe siber lah kn gamaknya.. semata2 nk cek email.. tk sbr punya psl.. Ya Allah.. i read d email dgn juraian air mata.. & i blh ingat d feelin' of sakit ditinggalkn tu sampai mati.. klu frust menonggeng.. mmg itulah dia.. yelah, ktorg tk pnh gaduh.. we r in gd term.. suddenly htr email "kt putus".. wat the heck!! cik yan call dia tk answer, m not satisfied sbb dia mintak break thru email.. apesal?? i nd an answer.. a cogent reason if possible.. where do i go wrong.. ms tu mmg tk blh tink straight.. mcm lagu "separuh jiwaku pergi" mcm tu lah.. hdup tk berdaya.. tk bermaya.. i go to work.. but i can't concentrate.. i can't do anytg at tht moment bcos i used 2 rely on him.. there's 1 day my car broke down tepi jln & i cried bcos i dnt hv him anymore 2 call.. apelah cik yan ni kn.. patut ms tu pnggil lah towing ke ape ke.. ish3.. nangis sbb yr-ex cldn't b there 4 u.. so pathetic btl!! tp mmg lah kn.. i lost my wings.. i lost my hope.. cm i didn't lost my life.. alhamdulillah.. i did ask him to meet me 4 d last 1 but he ignored.. Ya Allah sakitnya hati ms tu.. i cried.. i cried & i cried alot.. & i fell sick bcos of tht.. cd u imagine i beg him thru email.. sms.. i even go 2 his office.. *mmg mcm drama tv btl! i beg him not 2 leave me 4 d sake of my parents.. i want my parents 2 b hp.. bcos they r d most happiest person wen i said : "m gettin' married! ;)" .. tk sanggup nk let my parents sedih.. tk sanggup.. but takdir Tuhan mn mampu cik yan menghalang kn? abt a yr plus mcm tu i'm in my own dimension.. it really took me such a long way 2 heal luka di hati.. ms tu my family & my close frens is very supportive.. they know i could mv forward n turn 2 a new leaf.. it is not easy but alhamdulillah i gain consciousness after sumtime.. hehe.. m hp now, thts Y i cd smile while dictating ths.. but ms tu jgn cerita lah.. menangis berbaldi2.. hahaha.. & after that i ckp dgn dr sdri.. i dnt want to fall in love again... i dnt want to be hurt again.. i dnt want.. i really dnt want.. there goes my rainbows.. babai! hehe
oklah, ckp dl utk 1st part ni.. nnt cik yan sambung 2nd part punya love story yek... soon.. ASAP.. *aikk, tk hbs lg ghopenya.. yelah.. dia ada part 2, part 3.. hehe.. ok, tata!! jumpa lagi.. ;p
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