cik yan laser.. *laser ke aku??

hai2!! mmg tk hade keje ke hape tah cik yan ni kann?? byk.. byk keje.. hehehe.. taulah.. mmg cik yan tau ni dh entry ke-2 utk hr ni.. nk bape kali entry tah.. just b patient wif me lah yek.. i just feel bad.. sad.. & feel that somethin' is just not rite.. 

Menyandang gelaran sbg pengamal undang2 ni bkn mudah.. byk bnda yg kompleks.. from tiny little matter sampai lah big huge matter.. mcm inseparable lah my career life dgn my own personal life.. jd terlalu memikir dan terlalu byk alasan & jwpn.. apa nk jd lah cik yan.. haizzz

Dalam konteks perbualan pulak.. kdg2 cik yan jd cpt serius.. wlpn i know that m such a hp go lucky person tp klu timing ms tu tk btl.. temperature tk kna.. mmg blh bertikaman lah.. *stakat btikam lidah jek kot.. haha

Kdg2 cik yan pn confuse dgn identiti dr sdri.. OMG.. OMG.. biar btl!! tp mmg.. mmg slalu mcm tu.. haihh.. apelah nk jd dgn ko ni cik yan??

Cabaran plg berat & bsr bg cik yan adalah bl satu2 komunikasi tu tk bjaya.. myb apa yg cik yan cb ckp tk sampai maksudnya.. ataupun cik yan trlalu bertegas.. ataupun cik yan ni terlalu laser.. laser sgt sampai tk blh nak fikir perasaan org.. smhow i feel tht bl cik yan melaser tk tentu hal, byk lah hati2 yg terasa kn.. oh god, pls help me.. pls guide me.. sesungguhnya cik yan tidak sempurna..

So, di petang kala ni.. i remind myself that pls look after yr word.. pls look after yr action.. yg plg ptg tink b4 u act!! but how 2 tink wen it happen spontaniously.. uwaaaaaa.. ssh kn?? ssh bg org mcm cik yan nih..

oklah, serabut lah.. serabut sgt.. mintak ampun dgn Tuhan lah.. nnt cik yan mintak ampun jugak dgn org2 yg tak sengaje cik yan sakitkn hatinya tuh.. blh ke?? blh.. blh.. msti blh.. muka kna tebal skit.. tkpe2, itu lbh baik dr tkde guilty conscious langsung..

so guys.. nk cabutlah.. lg lm lg merepek je cik yan ni menceceh.. huhuhu.. babai T_T

Growing up or Growing old?? erkkk... ;p

Hey ladiess.. ahh sudah.. rs nk nyanyi lagu rossa pulak.. ekekeke.. mcm2 lah cik yan nih.. cpt btl 1 minggu kn?? tup tap tup tap.. dah hr khamis.. rs mcm smlm berisnin biru.. kihkihkih.. direct translation nko.. tkdelah monday blues sgt kn ms last monday tuh.. tp pnt lah dik non.. mcm not enuff rest gitu.. hehehe

Mmg tk dinafikan time really flies.. kn? kn? cpt jek ms berlalu.. tgklah skrg dh end of November.. tk lm lagi Disember.. pstu new year 2013.. adehhh.. 2012 punya cita2 pn tk tercapai lagik nih.. slow lah cik yan ni!! sabo jek lahhh..

Klu tgk btapa cptnya jarum saat tu berdetik setiap hari.. mmg lah semua bnda pn tk terkejar.. tp hdup msti kna ada target kn? bak kt Mr. S cik yan.. hdup msti ada misi.. visi..   apa tah lagi.. nnt jek lah kt rungkai yek.. hehe

Oklah.. ckp psl growing up.. recently my sister got engaged!! my younger sis k.. dh bp kali tah cik yan jd bendul pn tk hingat.. asik kna langkah jek.. hahaha.. so mmg lah kn.. dlm ati ni ckp.. dh bsr adik2 aku.. or on d reverse side shd i say.. dh makin tua aku nihh.. hehehe.. btl jugak kn?? tp no worries.. sbb i awet muda uuu.. jd wlpn jarak memisahkan umur kami tp i dgn diaorg tk nmpk mcm dh tua sgt.. ahhahh.. perasan sudah.. ;p

jeng3.. inilah rupa adik cik yan yg got engaged tu hr.. comel kn? ke manis mcm hakak dia? kihkihkih.. oklah kan.. dia dh bjumpa dgn sang putera dia.. lm jugak lah menyulam kasih bagai sblm decide nak brtunang nih.. tu pn mak yg bsing2.. klu tak.. hmmm.. tk jd juge.. hehe.. yelah kn.. mak mn tk risau kn?? paham2.. tp klu cik yan nih sampai mak pn naik tk paham.. ahahaha

Ni pulak gbr cik yan dgn my very lil' or youngest sis.. kecik2 dia dl pnt cik yan jg ms mak cik yan g work.. tp tkpelah.. gud thing is dat bond ktorg kuat & sgt rapat.. she's only 17 & sgt manja & ngada2.. tk blh ckp lbh skit.. mulalah nk cry.. merajuk sume tuh.. sabo jek lah.. hmmm.. mmg ms blalu pntas.. adik2 pn dh bsr pjg *2 jek pn adik ppuan cik yan.. dh berpunya.. tk lm lg nk kawen.. jd kompomlah m getting older kn?? hahaha.. but i tink age is just a number.. d most important thg is dat.. u r gettin' much wiser.. despite being more matured.. 2 me, i've become much prettier.. ahahahahaha.. tk blh blah... but seriously i am.. ain't joking sbb ms zmn muda2 dl.. m just an ugly duckling if i must say.. tk pcaya?? tk pcaya sudahhh.. bluekkk.. hahaha

ini pulak abah kesayangan ktorg.. abah yg hensem.. abah yg penyayang.. abah yg Tuhan kurniakan utk kami adik beradik.. abah pn dh gettin' older.. tgk abah, mkn sorang2 lps kenduri hr tu.. tb2 rs sebak pulak.. finally we hv 2 left abah.. bygkn lah kami 13 beradik.. sorang2 mengangkat lafaz ijab & qabul.. sedih tau.. sedih sgt.. sbb tu i dun mind 2 accompany my abah.. hahaha *yelah tu cik yan.. ape pon tk bole!!

yg ni tkde kena mengena.. cm cik yan dpt invitation nih recently.. sweet bkn?? the invitation  card speaks 4 itself.. wedding is all about finding yr soulmate.. looking 4 happiness with your sweetheart.. its abt passion, romance, honesty, trust.. and of cos we r talking about 4eva love.. sweet lah.. hehe.. anyway, m soo hp if my sis is hp.. dat most matter.. kn???

& most importantly.. we dun 1 2 b alone in dis wonderful world.. tp not necessarily life partner kn?? kdg2 we just nd a fren.. at least a fren 2 talk 2.. tkdelah sorang2 & rs lonely sgt.. mcm dlm gbr nih.. kosong2.. btl tk?? *kosong sampai org pn tkde nk dduk kt bangku tuh.. hehe

apepon cik yan doakan semua org hp.. bahagia.. ceria.. brulah hidup lbh hebat & lbh manis.. manis mcm penulis nih ye.. ahahahahaha.. layan jek lah korang.. mmg ape pon tk bole la cik yan nih.. hahaha.. oklah, smpai jumpa.. babai ^-^

best ke Legoland?

Hello darling2 semua.. darling?? jgn.. jgn.. baik jgn.. cik yan bkn jual skincare ye tak? takat nk ber'hai2 kat blog yg suam2 kuku ni.. tk hade mknenyalah.. hahaha

Rasanya mcm cik yan tk hade keje jek kan.. dah hari2 nk menghapdet.. haa, menghapdet nko.. kekeke.. mmg kureng sikit keje bl yr end nih.. mklumlah org dh in holidays mood.. sume pospone dulu lah yek.. talking bout holidays.. cik yan mmg tkde plan mengholidayskan dr ye.. stakat nk hbskn cuti thn yg terlebih2 sblm dihapuskan tnpa carry forward tu.. jln dekat2 jek lah.. lgpn bajet pn tkde sgt.. *adehh

Oh ye! korang dh berpeluang pegi Legoland? klu korang cam suka nk pegi tpt yg ala-ala theme park tu oklah kot.. cik yan bt syarat jek.. nnt tk hadelah klu org ty psl Legoland blur2 jek sbb tk pnh jejakkan kaki pdhal Johorian yg bermastautin di JB.. kekeke

So, last week cik yan dh pegi!!! cop2.. bkn pegi main2 yek.. main2 dh mcm budak2 la pulak kn?? cik yan pegi stakat bt pass jek.. annual pass at special rate.. ms tu ade promotion ms grand opening.. so dpt rebat byklah jugak.. annual pass baru RM195.. dtg lah berkali dan mainlah sehendak2nya kn.. pass dia mhl tau.. daily pn around RM140 gitu untuk adult.. klu annual pass ms tkde promotion blh jejak RM275 gitu.. tp hrga tertakluk kpd pihak pengurusan Legoland lah yek.. mn lah tau kot rege dia berubah2.. hehehe

so, ni lah pass cik yan.. taraaaaa *dgn niat bt annual pass cos ramai sgt kwn2 yg dh berjanji nk jln2 jb smbil reunion.. klu depa tk dtg, aku sekeh2!! kihkihkih

So, dptlah annual pass yg kaler kuning nihh... dh mcm kad matriks dh cik yan nengok nye.. hehe.. small in size.. easy 2 carry.. mcm ic kita jek.. handy bkn??

oleh sbb.. chewahhh.. oleh sbb la pulak.. hehe.. yelah, oleh sbb ms sgt mencemburui cik yan ms tu.. cik yan cm bt pass then masuk dlm 10 minit pastu kuar blk.. sbb we r going 2 Nilai on dat day.. dh nm pn annual kn?? org JB plak.. esok2 jek lah cik yan dtg lg.. hehe.. tp guys, if u really wanna go.. pls remember to bring umbrella ke.. pkai cap or hat ke.. cos d weather is extremely hot.. mcm kt USS.. pokoknya pns lah.. sbb dia kwsn bukit yg ditarah & digondolkan dgn jayanye.. weeee.. jd mmg very hot ye.. jgn plak hingat tkpe.. hot bli lah air kn?? mineral ke air hape ke.. mahal yek dik non.. plg murah 5 hengget.. apsal mhl sgt?? cik yan pn tk tau.. myb import dr obersi agaknye.. huhuhu

korang experience lah sdri nnt yek.. tkkn nk telan air liur all day long.. hehehe.. so, before leaving dat Legoland cik yan sempat snap d 1 and only pixca.. & here it is.. ;)

Blh la kn?? bkn model pn.. mn reti nk posing bagai kn?? hehe.. so, tajuk tu tk bape kena.. sbb cik yan pn tk pasti nk jwb best ke tak.. overall it is a theme park.. perhaps mmg best & korang blh enjoy.. oh ye, be reminded utk pakai flat shoes ye.. jauh pjlanan dik non.. hehe

so guys, hp visit 2 d 1 & only Legoland Malaysia.. TATA ^-^

Alhamdulillah... TQ Ya Allah ^-^

Alhamdulillah.. after sumtime, cik yan ada peluang untuk menulis lagi.. syukur pada Tuhan yang memberikan segala rahmat ke atas hambamu ini.. Tak banyak sgt idea cik yan nk tulis pn.. mcm tepu pulak otak nih.. nk kata byk memikir, tkdelah byk sgt.. cm kadang2 terlebih stress jek kot.. hr2 nak migrain.. too much caffeine perhaps.. tp serius, cik yan tk blh hidup tnpa kafein.. ehh, tkdelah smpi thp tk blh hdup kn?? menipu beno bunyi nye.. oklah.. surviving tp life mcm incomplete gitu.. pulakk?? hehe

Semalam Birthday Sultan kitaorg.. Sultan Johor.. ape kaitannya?? mmg lah tkde kaitan.. tp smlm ktorg tk pyh keja.. hehehe.. syok dh tu.. so plan lah nk pegi jln2 dgn adik.. tgk muvi ke.. karaok ke.. ape ke. ktorg choose leisure mall sbb klu lalu hway EDL tu dkt jek dgn rumah.. mls lah nk jln2 yg jauh kn.. bkn ada mood sgt pn.. tp mmg lah lupa tau.. klu time Sultan sambut birthday mn lah bukak tempat2 tu.. haihhhh.. jd lps pusing2 kt giant bli sum foods supply utk stok 2 / 3 hari.. ktorg g mkn jek lah.. nk ubat hati yg kuciwa ni kn.. hehehe.. cik yan tkdelah mkn sgt.. i ordered ipoh noodle soup.. sedappp.. tp tk lalu.. pdhal my favorite tuhhh.. so, ended up mnum air jek dekat 2 gelas.. yg ni perangai tk senonoh.. mak slalu marah klu cik yan bt mcm nih.. mcm dlm gbr nih.. hehehe

klu mak cik yan tau.. mau bising dia.. alahaiii anak bertuah sorang ni.. hehehe..

oh ye, sbnrnya bkn psl post ni semata2.. last week cik yan tgk muvi lama "in her shoes" dlm cite tu ade Cameron Diaz yg cun tu.. tp bkn psl si CD yg cik yan nk ckp.. cik yan nk ckp & quote blk poem yg dia read ms wedding kwn dia.. suka lah poem tu.. suka sgt..

it's a well-loved poem by E.E. Cummings, "I Carry Your Heart with Me"

Y i like it?? because of the poem itself.. & bcoz how much that particular person meant 2 u.. and now i shall quote :

I Carry Your Heart With Me

i carry your heart with me
i carry it in my heart

i am never without it
anywhere i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling

i fear no fate
for you are my fate, my sweet
i want no world
for beautiful you are my world, my true

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root
and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart

i carry it in my heart

by E.E. Cummings

sweet bukan?? mmg sweet sgt.. when i read it, i read it wholeheartedly.. i read it as i really mean it.. hopefully my someone special will appreciate it.. ms CD read over the poem, she read it with a tears & even wen i read it, i really feel smtg inside.. *alhamdulillah, TQ Ya Allah 4 dis wonderful feelin'.. & it is kind of sweet kn?.. manis.. manis mcm cik yan.. hahaha ;p

ahh sudahhh.. cik yan, cik yan.. mmg ape pon tk bole..

ok guys, sampai jumpa lg.. TATA ^-^

Cinta lagi... hmmm.. Lagi2 cinta..

cik yan mmg ttp cik yan.. tk hbs2 dgn cerita cinta kan?? ape blh bt.. itu kan normal.. lumrah kan?? epilog cinta yg penuh kelukaan pn ade.. hmmm.. mcm2 ade.. eh, cik yan suka lah lagu ni.. lagu hafiz dgn dato' CT.. muara hati yg jd OST adam n hawa tuhh.. smhow.. i feel so connected with d lyrics.. cheewahh.. ahaha.. k lah lyn video ni ye.. cik yan pn nak lyn perasaan sampai perasannn.. ahahahaha

Cinta terpisah ruang waktu
Tetap cinta bersatu dalam hatiku
Walau raga kita tak mungkin bersama
Ku yakini hati kan tetap setia

Ku percaya ke mana pun kau berjalan
Suara cinta menuntunmu kepadaku
Kerna bila cinta sudah bersenandung
Takkan terpisah hati

Demi cinta dalam hatimu
Ku yakin engkau untukku
Meski jejak pisahkan kita
Cinta kan bawa kembali padamu

Aku ada kerna engkau ada
Tercipta hatiku hanyalah untukmu
Jalanku pertunjuk padamu
Ke mana pun kan pasti kembali...

i didn't insert the last para of d lyric bcos bl sampai kat dat part.. i was wonderin' are u sure dat "ke mana pun kan pasti kembali?"

danggg!! tb2 cik yan rs not sure lah kawan.. jd klu tk sure mcm mn nk merasuk kan?? entahlah.. ssh nk ckp lah.. tk pyh ckp lah kan.. itu lbh baik.. it's time 4 me 2 stop tinkin' perhaps.. sudah2 lah tuhh.. haihhh

mengeluh jek cik yan ni.. tak baik lahh.. itupun tk tau kan.. biarlah cik yan terjun dgn labu2nya yek.. ahahaha.. oklah chowcincau, babai ^_^

Mungkinkah Cinta...

Menjengah blog dh jd mcm rutin pulak.. wlpn tk meninggalkan sbrg coretan.. i just do blog walking.. jln2.. intai2 blog org.. jd silent reader.. *ampunnn.. punyalah mls nk komen ke hape ke kn.. Lately ni cik yan rs mcm tk btl skit.. lps tu post psl cinta lah.. apelah.. pokoknya yg berkisar psl cinta jek lah.. dr kisah2 cinta yg dh berkubur sampailah kisah cinta yg baru berputik.. ishh, geli lah pulak.. hahaha.. cinta yang baru bertapak lah ye.. tk bape nk geli sgt.. hehe.. *suke ati ko lah yan!

oklah, ckp psl cinta.. mmg cik yan tk nafikan bl lps2 clash mmg tk ingin nk bercinta lg.. tk heran pn, klu blh cik yan ungkapkn begitu.. mmg tk heran sbb dh serik konon2 nya.. infact bl cik yan wrote on my earlier entry i did promise that i'll write on my Love Story ~ Part 2, 3, 4 and so on.. hahaha.. punyalah byk kn?? tkdelah byk.. byk yg hampeh jek.. tp feel tu blm dtg laa.. mls pn ye nk flash back memory ni.. silap2 tkde langsung psl entri2 tu.. hahaha.. mmg hampehlah cik yan ni..

anyway, psl cinta & prsn ni mmg ssh di duga kn? mulut ckp tk suka tp hati dh suka pn ssh juga.. mulut ckp dh serik tp hati merelakan. adooiii, mmg parah.. Nak dijadikan cerita recently bl ade org approach cik yan, mmg tk terkesan sgt sbb kt still tot of those past love history yg amat2 menyakitkan & memilukan.. eh, dh jd mcm lagu ezad plak.. hahaha

But how 2 say.. hmmm.. lbh kurang mcm giving him and me a chance lah.. to love & be loved.. takut sbnrnya tapi cik yan mencuba dgn gigih utk rs bahagia.. apepn yg berlaku cik yan mmg harap spaya cik yan jd lbh kuat, lbh tabah & percaya Tuhan mmg sygkn cik yan.. insyaallah..

At this moment i tot of this song :

 Kembali – Akim/Stacy

Berangan2 sekejap kan?? ape jelah cik yan.. & i blv he is most probably singing ths song.. klu dia tk nyanyi pn.. tp dia ckp mcm ni lah lbh kurang.. hehe.. alah, lagu ni:

Babak Cinta - Tengku Adil


ahahahaha... perasanlah sgt cik yan.. tp, suka2 jugak.. beringat2 jugak kn.. hopefully i dnt hv 2 be in dis song:

Pelangi Senja - Stacy

Adooii.. klu sampai jd cmni cmne ekh?? haihhh.. mungkin ms tu i'll put kesinambungan ceritera cinta kot.. i'll pray for happiness.. i really pray for it.. amin2 Ya Allah..

~The End~ ^^,

Hati oh Hati...

i know that i've put my entry on WW earlier.. itu cik yan tau.. but it just that i feel smthg is not rite.. yup, sthg is certainly not rite wif my heart.. ada suka, tp ada juga duka.. ada senda, tp ada juga luka.. hati oh hati.. bertabahlah dikau wlu apa pn yg terjadi.. recently i watched samarinda slot @TV3.. Titled: Saiful Nita.. i blv still on air bcoz i hardly had d chance 2 watch it.. i like d song they played.. it really suits my feelin' at dis moment of time.. it explains sumhow.. haihhh 

semudah cukup hatiku dilukai sekian lama rasa tak dihargai

sampai bila harus aku menanti saat indah setelah dikau pergi

inginku hapus semua rasa mencengkam ini

hanya padamu ku meminta aku pasrah

hilangkan rasa gundahku hilangkan rasa dukakku

hilangkanlah segalanya ku tak ingin sakit lagi

hilangkan kekosonganku hilangkan keasinganku

hilangkanlah segalanya ku tak ingin lara lagi
hilangkanlah segalanya
ku menanti saat sinar mentari ku menanti cahaya dalam hati
inginku gapai bintang yang gemerlapan agar terang jiwa yang kegelapan
inginku hapus semua rasa mencengkam ini
hanya padamu ku meminta aku pasrah..

Ye.. cik yan mmg pasrah.. pasrah pd yang Maha Esa.. semoga dia sentiasa melindungi hamba yang lemah lagi kerdil ini.. amin2.. ya rabb.. ;)

Wordless Wednesday

My Daily Routine

Pinky Wednesday ~ Me & my Mr. S

i'm lovin' it!!

Hai2!! ohoho.. seems mcm hr ni tkde keje pulak.. pdhal bru post smlm ckp bz.. membuhong pn agak2 lah cik yan ooitt.. hehe.. tkde, slalu mmg bz tp hr ni lbh kpd discussion & appointment day.. so far i've attended 5 clients.. kira ok ape.. ni wktu tea-break.. i tak drink tea.. but i update my blog aje.. hehe.. Anyway, seSukA Hati cik yan jek kan nk ltk title PINKY WEDNESDAY.. it shd be wordless lah cik yan.. hehe.. mmglah kan.. tp klu wordless, tk blh ckp apa2.. mcm mn nk stori-mori kn.. So, tkde lah apa yg menarik sgt psl pinky wednesday ni.. cm hr ni cik yan pakai pink kaler.. slalu black & white jek.. dull & kdg2 bosan gak tgk kaler tahi cicak tu kn.. hehe.. so hr ni smpat lah melaram baju raya tu hr yg tema pink tu kn.. kbtulan pulak cik yan dpt new pressie utk my extended version of my belated besday.. Samsung Galaxy Note yg hbt tu.. *haruslah teruja kn?? hahaha.. i name it Mr. S.. i love my Mr. S soo much.. its so convy & its so lah great to be wif my Mr. S all d time.. sgt suka dia.. sgt syg dia.. & 4 tht i choose pink leather s dia punya body protection.. tk mo dia calar2 kn.. handle wif care gitu.. almaklum FRAGILE.. hehe.. apepn,  i must say tht cik yan mmg sgt bersyukur sbb ada jugak yg sygkan cik yan.. hehe *perasan lah tu.. yelah kn, sbb dia syg dia bg pressie ni.. so, cik yan nk say TQ 4 d pressie 2 tht very intelligent & important person..hehe & i love it.. really love it.. mcm McD punya trademark 'i'm lovin' it'.. hehe

ok, itu aje utk entry kali ni.. len kali cik yan akan abide the Wordless Wednesday punya rules okeh.. till then.. bubye2! ;*



indahkah cinta???

Hai2!! its been quite a while since i last visit my own blog.. hehe.. cik yan, cik yan.. ape pon tk bole.. mmg tk bole lah cik yan ni.. Tapi mmg tau now m seriously bz.. mmg sgt bz.. ndak2 bl my senior left the firm around july tu ari.. mmg mcm lipas kudung lah kan cik yan nk kna settle kn semua sorang.. BUT of cos not really sorang2 lah.. my supporting staff sume ade.. cm life has bn totally hectic 4 me and even much hectic than i used to hv b4.. haihh.. ishh, tk baik mengeluh kn? kn? dl ms praktis kat KL i really wish 2 hv a bz working environment.. hehe.. haa, slh sape?? slh sdri lah kn.. ni lah dia.. bl dh dpt merungut jek.. adooiii.. tp btl tau mmg ms duk KL dl sgt relaxing.. now in JB adoii, klu blk blh nmpk matahari lg tu kira bersyukur sgt lah.. hehehe.. ok lah, actually topik utk post cik yan ni bknlah psl work semata2.. tp cik yan nk bermonolog ttg C.I.N.T.A ~ blh?? hahaha.. tk kuasa lah... tp just 4 sharing lah & 2 certain people yg mmg tk prnah tau ceritera cinta cik yan dolu2 kala bcos people simply accuse me of being choosy.. m ain't perfect.. bla.. bla.. bla.. and bla.. bla.. bla.. so, cik yan ingat cik yan mcm letih sgt nk explain Y this & that.. people won't understand.. they will never try 2 understand.. but 2 me, it is very simple if i put it ths way : bkn semua org bernasib baik utk dpt bahagia.. well3, cik yan sendiri is among d unlucky ;)

~ My love story : Part 1  ~

Kata org cinta itu indah.. indah sgt sampai hidup terbuai2.. ntahkn ye ke idak.. klu yg pnh bcinta myb blh la gbrkn rs terbuai2 tu kn.. angau semcm.. mkn tk kenyang.. tido tk lena.. mndi tk bsh.. aikk, hbs tk mndi ke?? eeuuww.. yuckss.. hehe

Well3.. my fren said i should consider myself very lucky 2 hv taste love.. bcos love smhow has its magic power.. it could do wonders.. well, i do agrees & indeed wen u r in love.. most probably u gonna c rainbows all d time.. Y is tht so?? yelah.. pelangi kn indah.. nmpak cantik jek.. btl tk?? *lets KIV on rainbows

cik yan ni sgt patuh toward my parents.. *cheewahh.. hehehe.. msuk bakul angkat sdri nmpk.. hehe.. btl.. no bluffing.. my parents said i shd finish study 1st.. finish smpai dpt LLB (hons) ye.. then only i can talk abt coupling, dating, etc.. jd ms zmn uni dl bl kwn2 berdating i mmg tk heran langsung.. bcos obedience kn?? mmg sgt obedience ye.. i finish doing my LLB then entering d practising world s a legal practitioner.. b4 tht kna jd budak chamby dl 4 abt 9 mths gitu.. dh lps ethics course & call to the Bar bru confirm jd Cik ye.. sblm tu diaorg panggil nm jek.. hehe *ape kaitan dgn cite cinta ni?? haihh..

oklah, lps dpt license cik yan mmg trs concentrate keje je.. ms tu adik2 pn msh sekolah, so i mmg help my family utk bantu adik2 sekolah.. mmg tkde ms nk pikir psl lovey-dovey ni.. skrg diaorg pn dh bsr pjg & dh ade family sdri.. cik yan jek yg blm.. hehe *ok2, now bru nk msuk my love story yek.. sorry2

oklah my 1st serious relationship mmg sgt mengujakn.. maklumlah, ada org syg kn?? hehe.. seriousnya thp bcinta cik yan ms tu smpai thp dh jumpa org tua & family & dh plan nk ke syurga.. hahaha.. syurga pulak.. sampai jinjang pelamin jek.. lps tu man2 lah cr jln ke syurga kn.. hehe.. ms tu cik yan rs dunia sgt indah.. mmg i see rainbows tau all d time.. he is such a caring guy.. sgt2 caring.. he's there whenever i need him.. sampai cik yan jd sgt depending on him.. wlupn i used 2 b a very independent girl b4 i met him.. yelah, sorang2 kt KL.. all family kat jhr.. so, i mmg sgt berdikari.. kami bercinta mmg bagai nk rak.. bak kt org tua2.. hehe.. tp kn, ku sangka kn pns berpanjangan.. rupanya gerimis.. rupanya gerimis mengundang.. alahai.. jd cerita cinta cik yan tu tk kesampaianlah.. huhh.. sedihhh!! suddenly dia brubah tingkah.. tk reply sms.. tk angkat call 4 abt a week cmtu.. then he sent 1 short sms : "PLS READ YR EMAIL".. ms tu zmn tk bape nk canggih lah kn.. cik yan pn blm subscribe broadband.. so mlm2 hr abt 11 o'clock cmtu i went 2 CC ~ kafe siber lah kn gamaknya.. semata2 nk cek email.. tk sbr punya psl.. Ya Allah.. i read d email dgn juraian air mata.. & i blh ingat d feelin' of sakit ditinggalkn tu sampai mati.. klu frust menonggeng.. mmg itulah dia.. yelah, ktorg tk pnh gaduh.. we r in gd term.. suddenly htr email "kt putus".. wat the heck!! cik yan call dia tk answer, m not satisfied sbb dia mintak break thru email.. apesal?? i nd an answer.. a cogent reason if possible.. where do i go wrong.. ms tu mmg tk blh tink straight.. mcm lagu "separuh jiwaku pergi" mcm tu lah.. hdup tk berdaya.. tk bermaya.. i go to work.. but i can't concentrate.. i can't do anytg at tht moment bcos i used 2 rely on him.. there's 1 day my car broke down tepi jln & i cried bcos i dnt hv him anymore 2 call.. apelah cik yan ni kn.. patut ms tu pnggil lah towing ke ape ke.. ish3.. nangis sbb yr-ex cldn't b there 4 u.. so pathetic btl!! tp mmg lah kn.. i lost my wings.. i lost my hope.. cm i didn't lost my life.. alhamdulillah.. i did ask him to meet me 4 d last 1 but he ignored.. Ya Allah sakitnya hati ms tu.. i cried.. i cried & i cried alot.. & i fell sick bcos of tht.. cd u imagine i beg him thru email.. sms.. i even go 2 his office.. *mmg mcm drama tv btl! i beg him not 2 leave me 4 d sake of my parents.. i want my parents 2 b hp.. bcos they r d most happiest person wen i said : "m gettin' married! ;)" .. tk sanggup nk let my parents sedih.. tk sanggup.. but takdir Tuhan mn mampu cik yan menghalang kn? abt a yr plus mcm tu i'm in my own dimension.. it really took me such a long way 2 heal luka di hati.. ms tu my family & my close frens is very supportive.. they know i could mv forward n turn 2 a new leaf.. it is not easy but alhamdulillah i gain consciousness after sumtime.. hehe.. m hp now, thts Y i cd smile while dictating ths.. but ms tu jgn cerita lah.. menangis berbaldi2.. hahaha.. & after that i ckp dgn dr sdri.. i dnt want to fall in love again... i dnt want to be hurt again.. i dnt want.. i really dnt want.. there goes my rainbows.. babai! hehe

oklah, ckp dl utk 1st part ni.. nnt cik yan sambung 2nd part punya love story yek... soon.. ASAP.. *aikk, tk hbs lg ghopenya.. yelah.. dia ada part 2, part 3.. hehe.. ok, tata!! jumpa lagi.. ;p

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Bait2 lagu ni buat kt rs sedih kn? ke haku jek yg rs sedih?? hehe.. Mlm td cik yan mimpikan seseorang.. org ckp klu kt mimpi kat seseorang tu tndenya kt rindu kt dia.. ataupun dia yg rindu kat kt.. rindulah sgttt!!! hahaha.. ok2 itu bkn pokok persoalannya.. persoalannya adalah.. knp kt sbg manusia ni sering leka, alpa, lalai & apa2 jua pktaan yg sewaktu dgnnya.. & hy tau mensyukuri nikmat Tuhan (*tu pn klu spesis yg reti bersyukur lah..) hy bl kt dh totally LOST that things or person or.. or.. ahh, brp byk or daa.. tp tulah kn, lumrah manusia ni.. ke aku jek?? hehehe.. tp btl ape?? u will only feel d great lost when u dnt hv it or dnt own it any longer.. walauweii, sudah terlbt itu jam maa..

smlm while watching d news, cik yan rs sebak pulak tgk berita ttg adik dirang.. sbb cik yan pn ada anak2 buah yg umur gitu.. yg tgh penuh keletah.. mmg rsnye family dia esp. mak adik dirang tu mmg sedih sesgt kn? tp tk jugak cik yan tau smasa hayatnye mak dia care ke idak psl dia.. tk taulah nk kata.. sbb ade stgh mak2 yg mmg tk bape nk care psl anak2 dia.. mcm sng sgt beranak pn ade gamaknya.. nak slhkn sape pn idak tau.. haihhh. dunia2..

sedar tak sedar pn sbnrnya cik yan duduk dkat jek ngan umah adik dirang tuh.. tk slmt rupanya bandar yg nampak mcm slmt nih.. sbb ape cik yan kt gitu.. we have our own IPD here.. police patrol car or by motorcycle sgt rajin mbuat pantauan ke, rondaan ke.. tah ape nm tah.. tp org masih berani bt jenayah lg.. haihhh.. tp tulah, berbalik pd pokok persoalan asal kt.. belajarlah menghargai apa yg kt ada.. baik apa sekalipn.. hdup pasti lbh hebat.. Insyaallah..

searching for human kindness

gud day every1.. today is wednesday.. it shd b a wordless wednesday rite??.. but i dnt feel like doing it today.. sbnrnya tk tau ape nk tulis.. tp rs nk menulis.. sbb dlm hati ni ade seribu 1 rs.. dgn tido yg tk lena mlm td.. haihhh... actually m tinking of putting the Title s

'searching 4 a true love'

but i tink its too over and exagerated.. bknlah cik yan mencari sgt true love.. cos true lv nvr exist!!!.. ntah.. me myself not very sure abt it.. tp ckp klu cik yan katakan cik yan dh bosan dgn kaum adam.. (myb bkn semua) tp stakat yg cik yan jumpa semua adalah :

 tidak jujur, sgt plastik & ckup materialistik!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pntnye melayan karenah lelaki2 sebegini.. barangkali cik yan blh juga katakn yg cik yan ckp serik berkwn & bknalan dgn spesis2 sebegini dr kaum adam.. kdg2 wondering, Y lah do i hv 2 meet dis heartless creature.. tp cik yan juga harus akur bhw Tuhan sdh tentukan jln cerita cik yan.. & those heartless creature somehow, anyway got their part to play a role & interfere in my life..huhhh!!!! mnlah ade org mengaku dr sdri baik kn?.. tp blh cik yan ktkan cik yan bknlah seorg player.. absolutely NOT.. cm mncr yg baik.. bknlah perfect.. ini klu asek nk pinjam $ jek.. mmg pengsan lah kn.. suka act like gud2.. pstu kaki penipu.. tk tahu malu.. mcm2 lg lah.. kdg2 org pn pelik, knplah cik yan ni tk reti2 nk kawen.. pdhal adik2 dh beranak-pinak.. yg diaorg tk tau.. cik yan dh puas mkn ati.. mkn ulam jantung bagai.. myb dat Mr. Rite has yet to appear on d surface.. cehh.. Mr. Rite lah sgt!! ahaks.. tk tau dh rite ke tk.. kdg2 cik yan mengeluh tp cik yan pn sedar bhw Tuhan menguji setiap dr kt dlm pelbagai cr.. ikhlas & redha itu bknnya mudah.. tp sedaya upaya cik yan menerima setiap ketentuanNYA.. cm kdg2 mmg sudah tk terdaya.. jika sering dikhianati, dianiaya & diperguna.. i really hv hd enuff.. in my blog cik yan hamburkan kt2.. moga sesiapa jua yg singgah tk terasa.. ini adalah luahan cik yan semata2.. huhuhu

beautiful angels

make up does magic ;)

Hellooo!! tak tau helo kat sape ye.. hehehe
Recently.. ceh, recently lagik.. ayat klise btl cik yan ni bl berblog.. ekekeke.. tkpelah yek.. lelama nnt blh jadik my signature blogging wording.. hehehe..
oklah, just nak share my recent.. very d recent activity.. bl blk berjemur, ber sun tanned bagai di Tmn Negara tu ari rs mcm nk bt make over plak tuk dr sdri yg mmg tk bape nk cun nih.. hehehe.. dh lm cik yan nk belajo sbnrnya.. cmne nk do make up yg santek cam retis2 tu.. hehehe.. blh plak teringin kn? kn?.. lyn kan jeklah perangai pelik cik yan ni ye.. benda ni mmg cik yan tk pnh bt.. klu slalu g opis atau even kenduri kendara pn cik yan tepek bedak garnier yg rege RM12.90 tu.. (cik yan bli time promosi kat watson.. kekeke) pstu calit lip bam skit.. dh ready kuar rumah.. so, ari tu ms berpesbuking terpandang 1 wall fren yg d make over oleh 1 sifu nih.. sbb tgk transformation dia yg sgt santek tuh.. cik yan terpanggil tuk add sifu tu dlm fren list cik yan.. pstu folo dia nyer xtvt closely.. nk dijadikkan cite 2 mggu lps *25/2/2012 sifu ni trn JB.. so ape lg.. cik yan pun tk lps peluang utk btemu sifu hebat ni & join kelas dia.. wattt?? kelas mekap?? tulah ayat mak cik yan bl cik yan bgtau psl kelas tu.. adik beradik pn sm.. mcm terkejut cam org kena sampuk.. apedaaaa.. myb bg diaorg minat cik yan yg 1 ni mcm weird sgt.. kekeke.. yelah salu masuk utan, bt trekking.. main lumpur, pacat.. ni tb2 nk g kelas mekap.. buang tebiat ke?? hahaha.. lantak lah kn.. tp mmg cik yan pn rs sgt hp & berbaloi2 sgt join kelas tu.. sifu baik gile!!! byk tunjuk ajar dia bg.. kwn2 sekelas pn baik2 belaka.. suasana riuh rendah ms kelas tu.. tbh2 plak msg2 asik bt lawak jek.. cik yan plak bt lawak yg mmg tk blh thn.. terlukis kening sinchan plak.. hahahahaha.. maklumlah tgn ni keras kejung.. ghope itew ler.. hehehe.. oklah, dh byk sgt menceceh.. cik yan tepek sket pix ms kelas yg happening ms tu.. TQ to our sifu sheira yg btkn i felt like beautiful angel.. cheewahhh.. mmg make up does magic.. muka sblm make over cik yan tk letak sbb ade dh dlm album lain kn? jd korang compare jek lah sdrik ye.. hehehe.. ok, adios!! cik yan tgh gile nk mekap kn org skrg ni.. abis muka mak, kakak, adik jd bhn eksperimen.. hehehe.. oklah, layan gbr kat atas tu ye.. chowww!!! ;)

our Taman Negara outdoor trip

The Fascinating Taman Negara

Recently cik yan & frens telah berjaya membuat trip outdoor kami ke Taman Negara.. well3.. trip ni mmg tk dirancang langsung.. tp tipu plak klu ckp tk dirancang langsung.. ekekeke.. rancang skit jek.. lbh kpd tk terancang.. ala2 trip main terjah gitu.. seronok sbnrnya trip outdoort kali ni.. blh berdayung sampan.. bermain dgn kelah *cehh, ye ye jerk.. pastu meniti jambatan gantung 500m pjg... fuiyoooo!! ilang gayat cik yan nih.. hehehe.. pstu bermain bot sampai basah lencun & plg penting skali adalah menikmati keindahan flora & fauna.. kagum dgn bumi ciptaan Tuhan ni.. cm 1 yg tk thn weather agak pns.. jadi bl blk ke JB, trs cik yan jatuh sakit.. so skrg pn msh tk brp well lg.. tp overall trip kali ni mmg sgt superbb!!!! next outdoor kami rancang utk ke Gua Mulu S'wak.. nnt cik yan tepek klu kami dh bjaya pergi ye.. sbb kami ber3 ni ala2 career woman yg bz gile gitu.. hehehehe.. so, kt sini cik yan tepek gbr TN yg sgt damai & indah tu ye.. ;)